In every walk and encounter with nature.. we receive far more than we seek...

It's been awhile since my last blog.. although I have had many learning curves since. I have not had as much time as I used to, to sit down and document it. Although I write in my journals to help me heal and reflect . writing I have found over the years, is good for my soul and in turn if it might help one other then it's worth documenting it. 

I was reading something this morning, that told me about the view from the top. if we're climbing a steep mountain and when we get to the top, we soon forget the pebbles and rough path we walked across to get there?... we soon forget the tiredness, the stones that hurt our feet or the little holes and sharp edges that may have derailed our path or misled us ... the view from the top makes you forget everything! but simply asks of you to enjoy the beauty and take it all in.

This blog is a little story about that... making it to that view, creating a safe space up there. and focusing upwards, and the mountains we carry, might just be what we are meant to climb instead. 

The month of May, as always has, has taught me many a lessons. A few days ago when we journeyed up a spectacular walk around Uluru and Kata Tjuta (one of the oldest rock formations in Australia said to be 600 million years old and home to a civilization dating back about 40,000 years on ) Note* we did not climb the rock as not climbing this is strongly recommended and considered sacred ground for the Anangu and all Aboriginal people.

image captured on first day at Uluru and the first time I saw the rock

On the way up that journey,  a few things occurred to me. 

How similar this can be to our journey in life, the walk up there and around it was steep at times wobbly and rough. The surface had stones, rocks that would often get in the way and you would have to move and veer from the path but you set your eyes on the horizon while only looking down to check what to avoid.

This is similar to what has been going on in my own life. From the time I learnt that my life changed and that I may have not made it or may not have had the chance  to experience or see many things. My whole perspective on life, people, situations and circumstances changed. Not over night but gradually it gave me a whole new meaning to what I will tolerate and what I choose to let go into wherever it is meant to go! What I find happiness in and the art of gratitude. The views I must enjoy while I can regardless... How much happiness I choose for myself everyday and that situations are powerless without my permission. 

I can only do my part to get there, I can't expect someone to carry me along the way, although if I did fall I would be assured of my angels to help me but I can only move forward through God's guidance, grace and blessing for me and my own desire to do so... Along the way if I am derailed or I fall I can only get back up and keep walking to make it to that view. Much like this month and since my last blog post, I have fallen a few times but each time I fall I can rest assured I gave it a better shot, I put in some genuine sweat and tears and I gave it a go, and I must stress less for it.. Sometimes it might take a few go's before I can get to that view and stumbling is a part of that journey. 

Stressing less about it, is a trait I endeavor to have and surely is the next step on this journey.

One morning we woke early to see the sunrise over this beautiful rock and my eyes just failed to function, it was such a blur that all I could see was white film over my eyes ! It took me back. a good reminder of how far I had come . Almost three years ago this was the eye sight I did have and how far it has come how many wonders I have seen, how many places I have experienced and the love and light that I have felt. I am enriched for it. The good far outweighs the bad and for that I am forever grateful

As the sun made its way up I could gradually see the light shine so bright bringing with it warmth and hope, as the struggle still continued I was able to still appreciate that beauty and find my safe place. 

sun making its way up over Uluru and Kata Tjuta 

On another day finishing one of our walks up to the Gorge, tired and out of breath I took a seat on a little rock, to admire the skies, the mountains and the valleys, the little holes which collected water, and to find a safe place where nothing in the world could touch me. In one of my readings again I came across this 'safe space'. It's a space in your mind and heart where nothing and no one, no situation can touch you. where anything anyone does or says about you will not hurt you. and you will let it pass over you

This space is something I am finding more day by day and reaching that view made me realise to find my safe space in my daily life. ensure to do my part. Give and continue to give but guard that safe space. 

the Walpa Gorge after a long walk we reached the mountains and the Gorge. A  little safe haven from the sunshine

One night we also walked in the darkness, paving our own path to find the stars, we walked among sounds of nature, and came to a point where we looked up and all we could see was the sky in all its grandeur. The sparkling stars, the milky way, I just could not believe my eyes! another reminder to me, to focus upwards always... look to the skies the stars, your maker and you will find your peace, all else will seem rather immaterial. My fear of the darkness had also soon gone away when I just focused on the million shinning sparkles that I could see. 

This journey to the rock, to see the stars to feel the earth was exactly what my soul needed to reiterate a few lessons in life. To rekindle and connect my soul back to the simple things in life, back to find my connection, and to awaken me to all the beauty around me. To focus upwards, inwards and find my safe space. To guard that and never let anything get through without my permission. Someone or something can only make you feel as small as you let them, the words of my father when I used to to feel disappointed about something. 
You have control over how you feel each and every moment. Just make it to those little milestones in your life where the view is amazing, you feel the warmth of kindness and genuineness and yet the freedom to just be.  

Of course I endeavor always to do my part ; in giving, in helping and in restoring but beyond that I can't ask for more but to simply take all the beauty in each situation gives me. the angels that might fly over  every now and then, the stars that may sparkle to remind us not to be afraid of the darkness, the stones and pebbles that might derail us but stay focused upwards and let that light shine bright with no intention of dimming another's. There will be days where it's only darkness no doubt- but that's when the reserve light you have stored within may help ...

Fields of Light to remember to keep shining while others shine their light too

Stars above me, to focus upwards, red earth below to ground me, safe space within me

Who knew that the mountains that I try to carry are sometimes what I am supposed to climb.. rather than carrying them heavy on my shoulders I should choose to climb them instead with faith and hope, and enjoy the journey wherever that may lead - I am sure the views must be spectacular! It's priceless.. 
if I reflect back on the past three years gone I feel like I have experienced a whole lot more than I ever would have if life didn't wake me up to this reality. It's not the riches, silver or gold but the little journey's my soul takes, the magnificent scenes these eyes have seen, the faith of others in me to help them, the answered prayers, the grace of an unchanging God and the precious souls I have met as a result . No doubt some have much more steep & rougher paths to walk, nonetheless well equipped for the journey it can make the walk a lot less burdensome. 

Thanks for prompting me to write again, and also hope this helps you in some way... These are lessons I have encountered, experiences i have grasped once I started to learn to live in my new skin
Feel free to get in touch if I can help in some small way
Love, light, blessings and healing

DV